I shall not murmur if at last — Mice

I shall not murmur if at last 1
The ones I loved below
Permission have to understand
For what I shunned them so-
Divulging it would rest my Heart 5
But it would ravage theirs-
Why, Katie, Treason has a Voice-
But mine-dispels-in Tears.
(F.1429/J.1410)
[1] murmur:: to tell, the location of mice or mouse hole in the house.
[2] ones, below:: mice or a litter of mouse pups.
[3, 4] underdtand, shunned them:: those mice must understand why Dickinson avoided them. She feared mice, but didn't want them to be terminated.
[5] Divulging it, rest my Heart:: if she told others, they would solve her fear.
[6] ravage theirs:: the mice will be killed.
[7] Katie:: name of a cat. Dickinson found a litter of mouse pups in the house. She feared mice but still covered them with scraps to save them from Katie the cat. This is a story about Catherine Scott Turner.
[8] Tears:: scraps. dispels in Tears:: to cover the mouse hole or pups with scraps.