I cannot buy it 'tis not sold — Boldness

I cannot buy it－'tis not sold－¹
There is no other in the World－
Mine was the only one

I was so happy I forgot ⁴
To shut the Door And it went out
And I am all alone－

If I could find it Anywhere ⁷
I would not mind the journey there
Though it took all my store

But just to look it in the Eye－¹⁰
"Did'st thou?" "Thou did'st not mean," to say,
Then, turn my Face away.

(F.943/J.840)

[1] it:: the Face in line 12; confidence, boldness, shamelessness.
[3] the only one:: her face was the only one in the world.
[5] it went out:: she lost her boldness.
[11] Did'st thou:: "Did you do that?" Thou did'st not mean:: "You are not evil."
[12] turn my Face away:: Dickinson sent her boldness away.